the return of the mystery girl...

hey guys... it has almost been a month since i have introduced you'll, though only informally, but surely to the mystery girl!

the dreams just continue...
so all that is happening is in the dream...

well, for the past month i have been in constant touch with her. And the more i meet her, the more i get to know about her, the more mysterious she is. honestly, i still do not know who she is. everything in the dream happens so fast. I don't remember most part of any of those dreams. I guess i am not supposed to. The fine details are always missing. I just won't remember why i am at that place. Initially it was quite confusing but when there is a girl like her around who cares for where and why? at least i don't.

Ice cream at midnight. no idea how we sneak out of home, but we are there, and there on my bike. midnight! empty roads! and with a girl! AWESOME!.
Walking around the streets. dimly lit streets! cool breeze! romantic! just that i do not know, what feelings we have for each other. then! as if she heard my heart speak, she holds my hand. The scene is so good that i am actually thrown out of my sleep.

She holds my hand. her palm is cold! i can't decipher if it was her cold palm or her holding my hand, but one of them surely caused a kind of shock wave through my spine.
I was too lost in her. All i could feel, was sweat on my left palm and it took me a lot of time to realize she was actually holding my hand and i was just... well not holding hers back....
everything about her is lovely.
The way she looks. The way she dresses. The way she talks. The way she looks into my eyes when she asks me something. The way she holds my hand. The way she says " shameless you are" is so cute. god damn it even her perfume smells nice. But who the hell is this girl? Why does she like me? Why does this dream happen to me? and why so many times?

The thing that eats away at me is why the hell is everything just a dream? why can't all this be true?

and then and then.....
whenever she says goouuttaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!! there is a sweet pain in the heart. my heart beat rises. i am filled with some kind of nervous energy. i feel happy, elated! that she is around and she cares!!

hey mystery girl...i don't know what feelings you have for me and i have for you. I don't care for what those feelings are. its nice this way! its awesome! all i hope for, is you to be real and be a part of my reality.
Be my moon and guide me through the night's darkness. Be mine!

...

it has been three days!
three days of gloom, nervousness and anxiety!
but the time of the shadow seems to have ended,
its about time for the light to dawn upon us,
mistakes have been made!
lessons have been learnt!!

it still feels like a dream
i was there and i could feel it!
i could feel the dementor's breath!
waiting to suck the life out of me.
one after the other, we were fucked by all!
raped we were by white and black, short and tall.
nervous hearts and sweaty brows,
legs that shook and hair that stood,
we carried them all into the lion's dungeon,
not knowing when we would return, if we would at all.

questions flew in from all directions making us tense,
it did not matter to them if they carried any sense.
we stood there like a rock on the shore,
tide after tide they came and we shook them away,
we stood shoulder to shoulder, hand in hand
and we fought them with all the might in our hearts.
they scared the shit out of us,
tortured we were and tormented.

we withstood everything that came at us,
nothing could defy the spirit within us.
the spirit of brotherhood it is!
brothers we were,
brothers we are, and
brothers we shall remain
some went through with the torture,
some fought against it,
and the others stood there by us,
for all the troubles we've been through,
we still remain awesome buddies and
nothing and no one can deny that,
slowly and surely we are coming out of that shock
whatever may happen, TRENDSETTERS rock!!!

missed you!!!

Two years it has been, or is it more?
Well I did lose track of time for a while but to be back and back with you again feels nice. More than two years it has been and I did lose touch. To embrace you now is not so easy, indeed it is difficult!

We have been together! together for a lot of time. You have been there with me through all times, happy and sad, easy and tough! Behind every successful man there is a woman they say, but behind me its you, always been you!
Though the success is limited it has always been you! You helped me and guided me to be here, but amongst all this I cannot forget the hardships you've caused me. You made many a evening of mine gloomy. I had no option!, i was forced to take your company. There were times you bored me. I did lose interest in you!!!!

And for the past two years I've totally lost the idea of what you meant to me. There were many happy occasions and many sad ones and over these two years I've definitely missed your company. I missed the happy occasions. I missed you.
To endure all this was tough and i faced many failures. It took me some time, but I surely realized that you mean a lot to me!!! Its been long and i wouldn't say it will be easy and i know it is not going to be. But its worth trying. I am sure it would work out well, because we were meant to be together.




FYI: you and your means ' REGULAR STUDIES' that i stopped after 12th and its only now that i am back to studying daily!!!!